Thoughts Why is thank you so hard? If I express how something made me feel great in some way, I have to acknowledge that at some point (or all the time) there was (or is) something that made me feel bad in some way.
Depression Paused Am I losing that drive? Who am I without it? Am I going to have the will and energy to claw my way back? Or am I just going to buckle and become an empty person that's just living without a reason...
Depression The Burden What if I start feeling better? I wasted all that time feeling so terrible, I could have been so much more if only I got help sooner...
Thoughts Music and meditation Meditation was always sold to me as not having a thought in your head: not doing anything, completely be nothing, do nothing. I tried. I tried so many times to achieve that, but never came close to it for a second.
Anxiety Backslide How do I feel like me again? Why did this even happen? When will I get out? Will I ever... get out?
Depression Betrayed by logic How the hell do I calm the anxiety when it has solid, strong roots in reality.
Anxiety What am I going to do now? I was walking past the mirror and it caught my eye. My hair is black, so that small “pale” round patch of skin was hard to miss.
Thoughts Separated by Distance - Life as an Immigrant Child It's really hard being the extended family that lives on another continent. Especially because there's 5 of us over here and at least a hundred family members that I have met and remember and their friends. It's really a lot to try and wrap your head around.
Depression Chaos I feel like I can only speak to myself in vagueness. Because I can't understand my feelings... or maybe I understand them and just don't want them. I don't always like my feelings but that doesn't stop them from being there.
Depression Holiday Depression This year I didn't feel like putting on a fake festive attitude. Because I didn't feel it. I didn't want to feel it... And that's okay right?
Depression What is Normal Anyway? Growing up I was not the typical girl. I loved video games, watching super hero cartoons, power rangers; I hated pink and dresses. I did love my stuffed animals and playing with some of that doll house stuff that I had. I wasn't that different. I didn't think I was anyway.
Anxiety Is it really so much to just want hair? I don't want sympathy. "It's just hair," as I tell most people when I'm trying to explain it. But, it's more than that. This is something that has shaped me as a person since I first found out. Here's my hair loss story beginning to present.
Depression Positive Eeyore When it comes to life I try not to get focused on the things that can go well. Instead I focus on what can go wrong. Not because I like being negative, though.
Depression Impact of Early Life Maybe I've been depressed longer than I realized. Did I not want to make friends? Did I enjoy being alone? Was I trying to avoiding the pain that comes with knowing you'll not see that friend again? Did I really think I wasn't worth their time?
Anxiety That One Day I Met Myself We catch glimpses of our reflection every day. But have you ever looked into a mirror and seen through it? Seen who you really were, and not just who your depression tells you you are?
Depression Thoughts are Just Thoughts Sometimes a thought is just a thought. Until you act on it, it doesn't have to mean anything. Thoughts come and go, but action is forever.
Depression My Life is My Message Gandhi once said: "My Life is My Message". If my life is my message, what is my life saying?
